Ninja

Monday, December 06, 2004

todae i went for kompang to make some money and got 15 bucks. I messaged her todae. From her messages, i knew that she was no longer interested in me. I've always failed. Maybe, we were not meant to be together after all. I've alwaes imagine her to be my bride. She used to be there for me. So thoughtful. So .... it's indescribable. i miss those days. Im always thinking. Thinking and wondering of people's thoughts and try to anticipate their moves. What for? No idea. I feel lost living here. I feel the solitude. I dun noe why but she really plays a very deep impact on me. I'll try very hard to get whatever she wants. She's never satisfied. I'm hopeless like she said to me. I know that she's got no confident at all from the beginning about us. She alwaes said " I love u as long as I can " (something like that) Tt's the cause. She did not have trust in me. I need someone to share to. haix.. I hope tt tt someone would appear. i'll be waiting

3:35 PM
Shalihin