Ninja

Saturday, December 18, 2004

Today is the release of 'N' level result. My head is spinning while im entering this. Today is a big dissapointment for me. I got a 6 instead of 4 I dreamt of. She did not look at me. I'm neither happy nor sad nor nervous while waiting for the result. All I wanted was to see her. Without her, I feel so empty like what I'm feeling right now. I miss her so. Deep inside me, there's a calling which asked me to let her go. From my observation, she can live without me. I'm the problems that she once shared with me would soon reside. My heart is slashed. How I wished we were like last time. At work, I think there's quite a number of guys who tried to woo her including her colleagues. I stand only 10% chance of hope of winning. But I'm willing to try even with that little hope. I hope she would soon realise how sincere i feel towards her. The weather now is about to rain. Juz like what I'm feeling now. I'll try to ease my mind.

8:40 AM
Shalihin